~In The World of My Own~

As I have officially turned 35 on 11th July, I am thankful for a lot of things this year.   Firstly is health. By end of 2019, my health took a positive recovery where: Finally off the BP medication as my BP level is back to normal and under control. Red blood cells counts is improving. Will still be on iron supplements until specialist gives the clearance to stop. I am on this treatment due to low red blood cells where I am unknowingly anemic for few years due to heavy menses. The iron treatments also works on my menses as well and it is back to regular schedule.  I am still on another medications but so far, it is under control. It never goes beyond 10 anymore. I am still working with health recovery until today as this will be long-term. Secondly is my safety. Back in October 2019, I was involved in a 4 cars accident at airport Kepayan - KK road. My Saga was sandwich by Myvi (in front of me) and Proton Savvy. It happen a day before I fly-off to KL for my training the next d...

Tonight, I was going thru my friends instastory when there is one really piqued my interest. This person send a Q to my friend.  According to this girl, she just freshly got out of her 7 years relationship with her ex earlier this year. She said whenever she goes out with her guy friends, she will feel very guilty towards her ex.  I agree with my friend's advice to this girl. Girl needs to heal herself before she can attempt. It will take time to 'detox' the ex presence from herself. Physically, mentally and emotionally. To take back the 'power' she has given and focus on the ex and to learn to love and take care of herself. Love thyself first before loving others.  Seeing her story reminds me of my own situation. 13 years later, I just start to heal myself and 'detox' this year. My only mistake was after the breakup, I surpress my hurt instead of healing. The result was not pretty that I finally feeling overwhelmed right after dreaming of 'him' afte...

WUJI  - Xiao Zhan & Wang YiBo 闻笛声独惆怅 wén dí sheng dú chóu chàng Listen for the melody of a flute, alone in sorrow 云深夜未央 yún shēn yè wèi yāng The nights in Yun Shen are long 是与非都过往 shì yǔ fēi dōu guò wǎng Once together, now it’s all in the past 醒来了怎能当梦一场 xǐng lái le zěn néng dāng mèng yī cháng In wakefulness, how can I brush everything away as a dream? 红尘中毁誉得失 如何去量 hóng chén zhōng huǐ yù dé shī rú hé qù liáng In this world, the good and evil done, how does one remember? 潇潇血热刀锋凉 xiāo xiāo xuè rè dāo fēng liáng Just as thick blood warms a cold blade 山高水远 shān gāo shuǐ yuǎn From the mountains yonder to the seas beyond 又闻琴响 yòu wén qín xiǎng The qin sounds once again 陈情未绝 chén qíng wèi jué Echoes feelings yet to disappear 卧荻花月如霜 wò dí huā yuè rú shuāng Like the quiet silvergrass reflecting the frosty moon 煮一壶 生死悲欢 祭少年郎 zhǔ yī hú shēng sǐ bēi huān jì shào nián láng Teach these young ones life and death’s joy and grief 明月依旧何来怅惘 míng yuè yī jiù hé lái chàng wǎng As constant as the brig...

Happy Eid-Mubarak! 😊.  May Allah s.w.t ease the sufferings of the people around the globe. 

The finality is there and obvious. It is glaring in front of me as it. I am grateful for the experience and wish 'the guy' the best. May he found what he has been looking for.  Time to move forward and learn more about myself.  ~Trishharas~

I have this thought on my mind lately. Been talking to this guy for a few weeks and my last convo was few days ago. He says he is interested in me but I told him we should slow down and get to know each other more before the next step but after I mention that, the impression of disinterest is shown.  Most questions were asked by me and never from the other party. If he was really interested, there should be a 2-ways Q&A instead of one.  So, I decided not pursue/continue. There is no use and no point. If he wants to continue, he may initiate. I will no longer initate anything.  I have promise to myself not to entertain or waste any time on passive and one-sided conversation ever again.  ~Trishharas~

I bought this book last year. Only recently just started to read. If you need a kickstart in life, this is the book. 😊 You may search and order it online since MCO is still on-going. 😉😎 ~Trishharas~

Dear minna-san, I apologized for not posting as frequent as I should. The whole of Malaysia are now under is under MCO or RMO due to Covid-19 since and so is everywhere around the world. At my district, Papar Hospital has become quarantIne centre. Severe Covid cases will be sent to KK hospital. I have been working from home for 6 days since Friday last week and experiencing heavy internet congestion due to everyone is working from home as well students doing online classes and not forgetting those who are streaming (Netflix, Hulu, Amazon) watching movies. Because of that, I'm experiencing emails in Outbox which unable to be sent out and system login & system slow-loading. The RMO started on the 18th March which was supposed to end on the 31st March but now it has been extended to 14th of April. There some stuborn people who still defy the Government by not cooperating to adhere the RMO. Rodblock is happening everywhere, point to point and district to district. ...

I found this in Matthew Hussey's tweets.  He was doing talks in Melbourne and this statement is very interesting. "Life is just this big video game. The way we play video games is we really explore in the game. We go through different doors, we talk to different people, we go to different areas. We collect gold coins over here, over here. We really explore the world. We play the hell out of the game. What if your life was a video game and there’s, just in Melbourne tonight alone, there’s just thousands of characters you can talk to in that video game? And all of them has a different story and all of them has something different to teach you or you to teach them? If we started seeing our life like that, like the best video game that was ever created and we’re actually in it, we would live with a whole different intensity." - Matthew Hussey It got me thinking, wondering and pondering.  Really looking forward to find my very own Amatus.  😊 ~Trishharas~

Hello minna-san, I am back again. It is a very personal one and this time it is about a dream I had today. I dream of an ex of mine. We were staying 3 weeks in one house together with our friends (his friends and 4 of my friends and a cousin of mine-my chaperone). It happened to be a celebration or sorts. So, I arrive with le cousin chaperoning me and his gf as there are other guys in the house. We were given our own designated room and I was his roomate with le cousin and his gf. We were practically trying to avoid each other for the next few days. The rest of the gang realized this and starts to leave us alone together inside the house without us realizing (their way of saying talk the shit out) One day, everyone was out on an errand to get celebrations going and left the two of us alone. We bumped each other in the kitchen while I was washing the dishes and glasses and he was about to sit and have his lunch. I decided to approach and ask if both of us can talk. He nodded...

(NOTES: I have been humming and singing along to the song whenever I play it from my Spotify playlist after watching the show on the Netflix. I heard the Metal Cover version first before this was officially released. Even my clanmates sigh whenever they hear me either humming or singing this song in our party chats. Hahahaha 😂. I love you guys, mah clanmates 😊. This song is dedicated to you guys! 😎) ~Trishharas~ When a humble bard Graced a ride along With Geralt of Rivia Along came this song When the White Wolf fought A silver tongued devil His army of elves At his hooves did they revel They came after me With masterful deceit Broke down my lute And they kicked in my teeth While the devil's horns Minced our tender meat And so cried the Witcher He can't be bleat Toss a coin to your Witcher Oh, valley of plenty Oh, valley of plenty, oh Toss a coin to your Witcher Oh, valley of plenty At the edge of th...